one year has already gone by..  it still hasn't really sunk into my head or my heart.. i mean, i know that it happened n everything..  i wasn't even in schooL yet when "it" happened..  i'm just about to leave the house when my says to me "the world trade center was bombed"  i remember my response to this..  "what happened??"  but i just didn't feel anything in my heart..  i still don't feel anything.  so many people died that day..  but i just can't really believe that it's happend and that even ground zero has been cleared up so quickly.  *sigh*  so stoic ehh?  why do they even bother with this memorial shit?  "one year anniversary of 9.11.01*  it's a nice idea, but why bother?  no one wants to remember it.

we always seem to want to remember all of the bad things that happen..  why don't we want to remember the good things?

.. wow one week`z gone by since my last entry..  sko0Lz aiite.. ech so mani freshiez.. lol.  blahz i dun liek savage he madD fuqin BORING~!!  he jus talkz n talkz n talkz abou shiet dat got nuffin to do wif wat we learning.  todae, sumhow da topic changed from "was ancient athens a democracy" to rap.  i mean COME ON~!!  EVEN MARTINELLI NEVER WATCHD DAT MUCH MTV~!!  (she watchd pokemon)  buh newaiz.. tennis is aiite.. buh my opponent wasnt doin crap.  she jus sto0d dere n watchd da ball roll away.  dam bitch next tyme ima play wif sum1 i NOE.  buh newaiz, on wednesdae aftah tennis, stayd at da field to play hb, saw kenneth mei n danny n kevin b4 dey was kickd out.  wen i was playin, saw gary, david, met diz dude named ga fay or sumdin liek dat.. left at around 4:30?  *shrugz*  diz past week i had madd hw n shiet so i cudnt even go online.. itz kinda weird lol buh relaxing.

todae, went to field aftah sko0L.  i playd ONE game.. lost jus narrowly n datz coz i fuqd up da dam singlez.  sorrie kevin~!!  we ALMOST won.. lol i dink i play betta at field den bedford.  saw lotta pplz i noe.. or sorta noe... kevin, bernice, joyce, gary (i went dere wif him n ga fay), david, andrew lee, allen, sum midwo0d grlz n guyz hb playahz, sum ppl i see in da hallwayz.. patrick...  me n pat had a civil convo lol.  LOL gary n david playd tennis todae.. garyz aiite, david needz sum werk lol.  left at a litto aftah 4 wif allen to bedford.  madd packd s0n.  i wait`d a while, playd wif diz grl against sue n janice.. lost i cant believe it.. i fuqin fuqd up.  den playd on da otha side.. got madd pissd n kevin yam n i dink i scared him.. buh we still lost 21-14.  den got a court on otha side, playd sum gamez ~~>  home at 7:45.  sleepie bai x)

o yea.. i was mo0dy todae.. pissd... talkd to one of my best friendz jessie =)  i felt much much betterz aftahwardz..  even tho we may not have as mani klassez togetha or as much tyme wif each otha durin skool n aftah, talkin to her still makez me feel... liek da weight of da werld has been lift`d off my shoulderz.  "u alwaiz make me feel better about anything at all.  i feel liek i can tell u jus about evrything.. maybe a litto bit less x)  buh dun werrie, in time u'll noe evrything lol.  luv yaz hun~!!"  *muahz n *huggz to all who i consider my frenz..  u noe who u r x)

well..the first dae wasnt all that badd..  i woke up at 7, got ready n stuff, left da place at 7:40.  i got to skool almost late, wif cyndy, lena, janet, winny, henrietta..  i dink datz all rah?  we got to homero0m, got yelld at sorta by winnie n sophie, den got our programz.  diz is my schedule::

Period 1 (7:o0 - 7:42) :: english.. y do dey give me the most boring klass of the day so earlie in the morning?
Period 2 (7:46 - 8:28) :: research projects.. itz rumpolo again~!  buh hez g0nnA be harder diz yr.. x(
Period 3 (8:32 - 9: i9) :: research chem..  i got a go0d teacher xD
Period 4 (9:23 - 1o:o5) :: regularly lunch, which i monitor for an AP during, but on thursdaez, i got chem lab
Period 5 (1o:o9 - 1o:5i) :: spanish 5 honorz..  another nice teacher xD  hope i do go0d xDD
Period 6 (1o:55 - ii:42) :: global..  wahhh~!  savage isnt a go0d teacher.. nice, buh cant teach x'[
Period 7 (ii:46 - i2:28) :: math..  i got a nice teacher~!!  he was on tv to0 lol x)  yAy my last klass of da day xDDD
Period 8 :: FREEEE~!!  yet im monitoring for kaminer again *shrugz*  mite do dat for 9th to0 so i can madd credz xD

[the following schedule is only for mondaez n wednesdaez]
Period 9 (i:i8 - 2:o0) :: tennis
Period 1o (2:o4 - 2:46) :: tennis

ok well therez my schedule.  i get out at 12:3o xD  made madd ppl jealous.  xDD  buh o wellz.. it dunt make up da fact dat i gotta go to skool madd earlie.

YESTERDAE.. herbert n amy kalld at 11 n 11:3o, waking me up BOTH tymez dat i was drifting off into sleep.  dey r so0o lucky i dint see them earlie or i wudda hurt dem.  xD  o yea..  yesterdae dere was sum stupid fake bomb threat.. it was jus a old briefcase dat sum1 left in da hallway or sum shiet.  o wellz 4th pd was skippd so i dint haf my free pd x[  saw dennis daydreaming while i was helping my math teacher get bo0kz from da supply ro0m..  lol.  saw kevin.. dat bum ignored me so i'll do dat to him to0 xD

TODAE.. God i dunno how i survived.  i had to wake up at 5:3o AM to get ready for sko0L and get there on tyme.  x[  i was almost late to0.  met sum new ppL..  fell asleep in nearly 3/4 klassez..  blah.  i was soo0o hungry during global my GOD my stomach was growling.  got homewerk, which i shud go do now to get it outa da way so i can go to da park n get a court xD  bbai now~!  *huggz*

p.s.  o yea..  my mommie got me new earringz~!!  dere white gold and dere litto ho0pz xD  dey cost her around 50 dollarz...  n im gettin more jewelry for my sweet sixteen~!  xD  im gonna take my mommiez ring coz it lo0kz nice to0 lol xD  jpz..  buh newaiz i luv my mommie~!!  xD

the summer is gone..
and school has begun,
who knows this year..
what will come?

sophemore year will be reaLLy hard.. i think.  because of all the regents that i'm going to have to take.. and all of the tests and stuff..  and not to mention that stupid practice SAT...  geez man my parents are so strict about my f*cking grades... oh wellz who knows what will happen this year?  only God..  but hey, i'm still gonna chill with my friends, old and new.  i love you all..  might not be writing a lot in here anymore.